• do a facial at least once a week. this will make your skin healthy looking and clean. make sure you exfoliate as well, excellent for keeping the face clean, bright and spot free, however do remember if you dont exfoliate or do facials regulary then u will get a breakout, do not worry as this is just pulling out all the dirt and grime. it wont be forever.also get a loofah or sugar scrub and get scrubbing your body, keeping sking lovely looking and soft also improving the circulation. exfoliating the body is also thought to shift cellulite.
• keep hair healthy. invest in an intensive conditioning hair mask. this will keep the hair shiny and lookin and smelling great. again because of lack of vitamins and minerals you could be greasy and not shiny.
• try to drink some fresh orange juice wen you can, this again will keep the immune sytem up and help to stop you getting poorly, this has happend to me several times.a simple cold turned into the nastiest kind of flu like 5 times in 4 months.
• wear make up if you can. not too much but just a litte. wear some blusher or bronzer to keep the colour in your cheeks. looking pasty is a big sign that someone is not well.
• take a pride in your appearence. make your hair nice, make an effort, this will draw attention to the fact that you try. people will notice how cute the bow in your hair is before they notice how skinny you are.
• remember smile lots and lots. this will make people think you are happy and content with the way you are.
• always consider the fact that someone could try and make you eat, for example my friends come to my house armed with junk food and i have to say 'oh no, i just ate a huge meal' or ive got a real upset stomach today, il pass thanks'.remember to think of as many different ones as you can as after a while people get suspicious. you will prob have to eat sometimes just to get them off your back. dont go nuts just slowley and loads of water.

hey all my beautiful buddies.

how we all doing today? hope all is well.

so iv had a good day after my binge yesterday. i did not weigh myself today as i didnt wanna know, it was so hard pretending that i dont own scales.ive been studying all day so i kinda forget to eat cuz i get real stressed. i have had a pear, a banana and a rice cake. i also had a cheeky low fat hot chocolate minus the sugar and milk, which boys and girls i find stops me craving chocolate and sweeties and crap, just a little tip there i you are finding it hard to get rid of those urges.

so im quite proud, prob a good thing i am stressed up to the eyes with essays and studying. took up smoking again, i only quit in sept and that helps me stop feeling so hungry.

love you all.xxx

ok woke up and didnt wan get outta bed for fear of the kitchen. as i have a son my boy needs to eat alot so i seem to always be in there preparing snacks or cooking, which of course i dont mind as he is my baby, the most important thing in the world to me, its my will power that bothers me. that i cant resist taking something frm the fridge!

so far ive had a pear and a shit load of water so keep thinking thin and hopefully my stomach will ahrink a bit more after my binge yesterday!!

hav not heard frm the bastard ex all weekend, he was supposed to come and see his son yesterday and did not txt or call or even turn up, hense the big bitch as binge!

i wish he could know wat tis feels like. i miss him so much and i dont know y cuz he reats us like shit!

fingers crossed and gorgeous man will walk into my life n e minute qand sweep me off my feet love me for me and my wanna be thinness.

i woke this morning and i was so happy, id lost weight and i was feeling like i was well on my way to being beautiful, and then i fucked up.
i binged. i binged so bad. i ate chocolate, muffins, crisps, etc
i feel like a huge, fat pig.
tomorrow is another day, i have loads of studying to do so i will dive into that and forget that food exists, if i can.lol.

i need a new plan, more eph i think.
xx